Queer is by definition whatever is at odds with the normal, the legitimate, the dominant... The possibility of a queer politics [defines] not the struggle to liberate a common, repressed preexisting nature but... an ongoing process of self-constitution and self-transformation.
-- David Halperin, Saint Foucault: Towards a Gay Hagiography
We’ve had a lot of fun putting these episodes together! Because KiQ is but one in a number of projects in each of our lives, we tried to keep time and costs down by shooting all of our episodes locally in North Carolina, where we both currently live. Ideally, we’d like to expand to shooting in new places, and we’re hoping that the future of KiQ will allow for that kind of expansion.
Carrie: My interest in queerness began at fifteen when I first wanted to have a girlfriend and I didn’t have enough words to describe my own ideas and feelings or the way they fit (or didn’t fit) into the world around me. I’ve been working with and in scholarly and activist communities in which people think about issues of gender and sexuality ever since then. I have found some of those communities within the field of Women’s & Gender Studies, in which I did graduate and undergraduate work, and I’ve found others in personal relationships with people who may or may not identify as existing somewhere on the LGBT spectrum. I’m currently involved in doctoral studies in which queerness often emerges as a helpful way to think and learn, and I also help to organize a group for queer / LGBTQIA youth in Greensboro, NC. Whereas I’ve been thinking about queerness for my entire adult life, I’ve only been learning about media production for the past few years. I’m so excited for the potential of KiQ to spark conversations in all sorts of personal and educational contexts, and I appreciate your taking the time to watch and think about the episodes that Rick and I have put together so far.
Rick: When I was twelve I thought it was time to be a man, so I subscribed to Sports Illustrated for Kids and joined the track team, but I didn’t care about sports and I wasn’t especially athletic. When I got to high school I auditioned for a musical instead of trying out for football. I remember a few conversations in which someone asked me to explain if I was gay. When I responded that I wasn’t, they would say, “Are you sure?” It was an annoying question and one that seemed to reveal more about the person asking it than it did me, but over time I accepted that there were aspects about my personality that didn’t match others’ ideas of “masculine” or “straight.” As an adult, I agreed to be a known sperm donor for some lesbian friends, spent four years making a documentary about the experience (Between Friends & Family), and in the process discovered “queer” as an idea and a community that was more welcoming and hospitable than any I had encountered before. The more I look around, the more it seems that norms don’t really exist; KiQ is a way to share some of those observations.